It's funny how things don't end up the way you want it. I've never considered myself to be a fatalist but somehow I think fate has played a little game on me. Due to my illness I have missed an interview in which I thought I would have done exceptionally well as I've prepared for it, and missed an exciting new venture to a far away land. As I think more about it, I realise that it was not fate playing a game on me, but a consequence to my actions/choices. I know that it was my choice that has led me here. I chose to work those hours, I chose to wear that thinner coat, I chose to stay out later than I should have which ultimately led me to my unwanted illness. And as a result of these choices, I am stuck here in the country, working instead of taking a break from work. I was mostly looking forward to escaping the "rut" that I have gotten myself into, but I think maybe time away whether bedridden at home or in a strange and foreign country is just the medicine needed. And luckily this remedy does not taste bitter.
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Noooo, you are being so hard on yourself cutie. Sometimes things just happen that are beyond our control. Like getting sick. Anyways, the point is that you deserved a break and I do hope that you get one soon. Tea and AGO in the meantime.
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